Been a couple weeks, I’ve been spacing out

I’ve been thinking ‘bout,

All of the times that I let you down. 

Flipped the hourglass but I’m running out,

I’m running out of time.

I keep wasting all my time. 

They say it’s all in my mind,

The doc tells me I’m doing fine, but

I still wonder why do I do everything I hate?

I hope it’s not too late for me to change, 

oh for me to change.

Told you I was fine when I was alone.

But on a smile when I left from home.

Gotta get this weight off my chest, 

So I guess I must confess…

The first time I left the nest,

Was the first time that I grew depressed.

I minimized all my sadness with a screen,

Of dopamine and cloudy dreams, 

And now I sink instead of sleeping.

I must confess,

In 2021 I was insecure, oh so insecure

I just learned to hide it.

Run instead of fight it.

Couldn’t fight it no.

If I were to confess,

everything that I’ve done wrong,

It wouldn’t even fit in this whole song

It wouldn’t even fit on this album.

I can’t justify, can’t minimize or explain.

The only thing I can do,

Is hope you hear me say I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.

I’m not meant to be on my own.

I’m not meant to be.

(Cello)

If there’s one thing I know.

If there’s just one thing I know.

I’m not meant to be.

Alone.

I’m not meant to be.

I’m not meant to be. 

lyrics, composition, performance, production, mixing, mastering: Jake Thomas

guitar: Jonah Thornton

organ: Ethan Auch

cello: Danny Friesen

beta listeners: Matthew Campbell, Ethan Auch

art: Parker Hale

graphic design: Matthew Campbell

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